Thursday, March 3, 2011

Half Year

Its been half year since i updated my blog, and here is the update.
These days i become so busy ,and last week i became 23 years old.

I become matured in one way, but still childish in some way, thats what im feeling these days. The responsibility become harder in my shoulder, and there is no time for myself. I still want to enjoy playing games , playing with my friends, wake up at 10am, spoiled, and so on.But im 23 years old now, i have target and goal to fulfill , and some dream to pursued. Well, may be you could say im whining right now, and yes, sometimes im not so powerful as people see.

Im a type of person who see world from my heart , not from my logic. People say that is how woman see world, woman thinks with their feeling , while man thinks with their logic. But i like to think that way. Sometimes you could see what most people could not see, feel what people feel. Specially because im become melancholic these days. In some part that ability become useful when you dealing with people, but become troublesome when you dealing with some problems. You will 'think' it over and over again nonstop. Feel paranoid, worried endlessly , and it will stop once you know its over and solved.

People say it happens because when you think with your logic, it wont really haunts you because sometimes your brain sleeps when you rest, but hearts keep beating , and those thinking & feeling will keep coming to you. These days i hard to sleep, thanks to that.

The hardest part is when you have to do what you know that it will hurt your feelings, because im thinking with it, and i hate sacrifices, because it means you have to lose what you hold for so long. Friends, Time , Relationship, and so on. These days i start losing them. What i can do is choose the option that i have think repeatedly , believe it was the right choice , bit my lips , and pray that it is really the best option. I have to show and convince people that im strong, because there is colleagues and people i have to lead and guide.

Believe me, sometime is not easy to be me.
Well, enough for the whining thing, i still have ton of works to do, lol

As for what im doing right now, right now im opening interactive studio and clothing line in Bandung. Its 'Rakun interactive studio' and 'The lucky clovers' clothing line. I partnered with some of my friends to run these two newborn company, which makes me think like business man these days, and i like it :)





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